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Emotionally Confused [:?)

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Four years. Four years flash before your eyes. Is it over? Is this the end of it? Talking to myself about it really confuses me …

On one hand, yeah, yuuuuppiiiieeeeeee πŸ™‚
It feels great being free, being alive again. The past four years have been incredibly exhausting; physically. psychologically, mentally, spiritually, and you name it! Even though I know “we’re just getting started” with the real world out there and the usual bla-bla-bla, well, NO! I’m glad to face it. I’m happy I won’t be having any more of the sick final examinations where I get to list all I know about something, nor spend sleepless weeks to deliver a 2-marks project (I can’t deny I’ve learned, but I fairly paid for that!) I’m glad I’m out of the system with all of its failures (even I know the larger system is a million times worse). I’m excited to be now in charge of making my own decisions, picking my burdens and weights, choosing the painful moments I have to pass (hopefully not) – no one’s forcing me now! But still I do believe that every bad, hard or difficult moment you pass, builds you up …

On the other hand of the story, nooooooooooooooooo 😦
I’ll miss every moment. I’ll miss every face. I’ll miss the silly, short moments we used to spend together. I always believed that people who are close, stay close, no matter what seems to push them apart. While other people who were just a few smiles, his and byes, will remain the same. That’s why I never believed in goodbyes! I have friends whom I’ve known ranging from 8-13 years before, and we’re even closer comparing them to some folks in college – so, yes, I can do it! I do have new people now that I would delightfully add to this dear list of mine. But still, every moment outside the lecture hall, between the lecturers’ pauses, the long walks between the buildings, the 15-minutes break between sessions, and most of all, our unforgettable, silliest, craziest moments ever – these are the moments I’ll miss!


In conclusion, I guess it’s nothing more than a phase, a chapter in our lives. In this chapter, there were the good times and bad times. I’ve learned a lot, from every single person, whether we were close or not, I liked or not – every moment and every person contributed to building and shaping the current version of me! And I am grateful to those four years for that ..

I won’t miss the system, the environment, and the no-purpose sufferings; even though I know I’ll be getting more of that later! But, I will miss the people, the warmth, the love we had. I will miss the times we shared; the happy ones, when it felt like we were one big family, as much as the sad ones, which held us stronger and closer. I will miss all my brothers and sisters I’ve earned, even those I only earned in the last year or even the last months, and it makes me really sorry for being that unfortunate, not having our relationships that good earlier; but at least I know for sure that brothers and sisters are never apart! I have had blessings within those four years of my life more than I could ever dream of .. a7l ..

We were different. I don’t think FCIS has seen, or will ever see, a similar class. I’m honored to be on if those students.
I’m sorry if I ever hurt anyone. I hope I’ve been a good friend, good enough to be remembered in your share of the good memories in the past four years ..

Love you all .. Thank you all .. and will horribly miss you all ..
Our legendary ..



Cya in our coming-up T.G.I.Funday .. πŸ˜‰
You see, it’s not over, huh?! LOL


Written by AlaaShaker

June 1, 2008 at 9:21 pm

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  1. Well i finally found my way to your blog πŸ™‚

    U have no idea how happy i am that the first thing i read is this post.
    GOD … those words !! they really really got to me.
    I like to think that i’m one of the honored ones that are added on ur list.
    U should know that U have left a mark inside everyone in Class of ’08 … although its not always a good one πŸ˜› … yet U’ll never be forgotten .. so be happy abt that πŸ˜€
    No kidding around … I’m very glad to have finally gotten our frequencies adjusted, although it would have been better if it was a bit earlier πŸ™‚
    I’m very glad to have such a great brother like U.
    and heey … its not over .. T.G.I. Funday awaits us πŸ˜‰

    I wish U all the success in life … coz U do deserve it πŸ™‚


    June 2, 2008 at 2:22 am

  2. Great ….. Congrats Alaa


    June 2, 2008 at 8:35 am

  3. πŸ˜€ great post but just one comment πŸ˜€ heyya ezzay el dof3a kollaha banat keda?!! LOL!


    June 15, 2008 at 8:00 pm

  4. congratulations Alaa .. really all of you ..[ FCIS ’08 ].. helped anyone who wanna help .. and congrates also for the wordpress πŸ˜‰


    June 17, 2008 at 7:52 pm

  5. nice post πŸ™‚ I liked it .. Congratulations πŸ™‚ ..


    November 15, 2008 at 10:14 am

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